Coping With Pain

I think sometimes we hide the truth of our hurt to protect the people
in our lives
Perhaps even to sheild ourselves
We ignore how agonizing and consuming it all feels
We keep it inside
Push it down and bury it
Store it in dark corners
We let is fester and
we let it build up to
volatile unhealthy levels
to safeguard who
Them or Us
I use to let these secret pains
kill me
Would smile to suppress tears
Would cut myself to bleed out
what was trapped and
screaming inside the deepest part
of me
Now I write
Release my pain a syllable at
a time
I no longer disguise it
with “I’m okay” and
laughter from the ones
I love
because they love me enough
to bear witness to it
and I love myself enough
to purge it

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